i can think of a million things to say when I lay in bed at night, but as soon as my fingers hit this keyboard i draw a blank. everyone wants to say something profound, witty, humorous, significant, impressive, smart, memorable. people spend hours keying words and editing themselves imagining what the reception will be. some people read their work and believe they are genius. type the last sentence. hit the period. arms outstretch way up over the head and hands clasp in the middle. lean way back in the chair just stretching in a moment of accomplishment. oh yeah. they are going to read this one and it's gonna be a hit worldwide. everyone will say...wow, that guy's a good writer. i've never read anything so impressive. what a thinker. wish i could write like that. that's what they will say. some people write consistently but always close the book and never let anyone else view it. lack of confidence? maybe they just write to satisfy some personal need. nothing further is needed. reading of the written word is out of necessity. need to study a subject? need to get away? need a wealth of knowledge? need a hobby? need self help? we are all in need of something and most likely you can find it in a book. some people are arrogant about writing and reading and knowing authors and important works. they start up a conversation and quote someone........the author or a novel character.........glance around to note the reaction if any.....then the gloat of personal satisfaction kind of rises up in their face.....chin lifts up....slight grin....the conversation continues with someone deftly changing the subject matter. mr. arrogance doesn't care. he made himself known. good for him. some people say my vocabulary is above them and it's use is deliberate on my part. what???? like i've got some secret plan - ulterior motive- when i say i am discombobulated. that's not a big word. that's a regular sized word. a silly fun word. i can't even think of a big word right now. look at me. i'm saying "big word". hilarious. it's colloquial. indigenous vocabulary. it feels good to free write. it's liberating. no self editing. just babble babble. writing just opens up a world for you that you don't have to care about if you don't care what people say when they read it.